teenagehoodism.

Ugh, TEENhood was SO long ago.

Just kidding, it wasn't. But sometimes it feels like it....

Like on mornings (which are my nights) when I sit here listening to Straylight Run and think about nights (which were really nights) where I would write in my journal, weekends where I would throw parties with my friends, and go to high school and love/hate it. I cried a lot, I laughed a lot, but I just have mostly good, warm feelings thinking back on those times.

I'm glad I can look back on things via livejournal/blurty blogs I had back in the day which links will not be shared unless it is demanded of me.

Oh, the simplicity.

To my past self: You think life was complicated then? Oooh, girl....You're in for quite the ride.

I'm happy....But I'm nostalgic.

Existential moment. Hold on, wait up, I have the perfect song.

Lakes and Sleep.

I'm a night owl again. Not by choice.

I have been sleeping 24/7. I think my body hates me. I think Jackson isn't too fond either, considering every time I go to hang out with him, I sleep the day away. Why is this so hard on my body?

P.S. I feel like my coworkers are feeding me 24/7. They bring in goodies all the time. I can't complain.. But at the same time...ALL this food is taking its' toll! IT IS!

I woke up at 8:40 pm tonight, and am now planning this wedding. Which, I'm sure you will be sick of hearing once it's July.

This is going to be it:

How beautiful is this? Except picture green instead of fall colors.

Right on Seneca Lake. It will be beautiful.

What else about me.

I'm reading my first Stephen King book and I absolutely love it. 11/22/63 -- Pick it up if you love historical fiction, JFK, the 1950's-60's era...Oh how I would love to live in that era.

Other than that...Life is one big sleep fest.

Eee 2012!

Why do years keep flying by?

And...Why do people keep getting older?

Points to ponder.

Anyway. I cannot believe it's 2012.

I got engaged in 2011...Albeit December 17th, but still. The world turned one year older on January 1st at 12 am and I realized, I am getting married this year. Eek! It's been wedding planning galore, and I feel like I've gotten nothing accomplished, but in reality I am trying daily to get things in order. Thank you, Dad for scouting out places for me. I don't think I could do it without you.

I miss home a lot. I miss New York. I miss my co-workers there. Mostly I miss my family though. I'm obviously comparable to a homesick kid at summer camp, except this is one long summer camp trip. Or maybe boarding school is a better comparison. But really. I miss everyone.

My grandma...I am so glad I got to see her the night after I got engaged. It's sad watching people get older. Especially someone you look up to so much. I remember grandma walking us to Nathan's, when she played Pretty Pretty Princess with me while babysitting me in upstate New York (she won). But I am so thankful she is here...78 years young, to be able to see my wedding. I already told her I am naming my first girl after her.

Family is the best...I look like the devil.

Years fly by. People grow up and grow old. But, I am happy. I am happy to have spent the past year with people I love. I am happy I am where I am today, albeit far away from home.

I am happy that I have a job ---I started the night shift last week and am officially nocturnal, but I am still lucky that I have a job at all. And that my coworkers are amazing and fun and so incredibly nice. I am happy for the next step in my life!!

2012 will not be the end of the world ---It will just be the new beginning of something great!!!

The end of a lovely year in NYC.