i guess..

i guess i should write in this for a moment.
nothing's really happened, i went home this weekend. it was awkward seeing my dad, but it was actually so good to see my mom. me, my mom and my sister had the BIGGEST laughs all together. it was so great. i don't think i've laughed that hard in so long. i stayed at my dad's for one night...he had the decency to kick his girlfriend out after i nagged him about it. so i decided to be stubborn and not stay at his house after the fact. whatever.


i have an exam to study for..pharmacology. later.

lately..

Lately it's been filled with ups and downs.
I feel okay. I don't.
Right now, I don't.
Every second, I'm regretting something.
Right now, I regret everything.
Sometimes it feels like everything's going right,
Now it feels like everything is a mess.

I keep over analyzing previous decisions.
Should I have done that? Was that the best choice?
But is that really going to do anything?
My mind is full of questions. Overflowing.


I need to focus. I wish I could rewind.
Heart full of love and smile of innocence and pure joy.