Books and Being Lucky.

So, the last time I tried to write a blog it was an epic fail.  It will forever be in my drafts.  I will never post it.

I was really bitter about a book I read.  The only part I'll divulge is that once finished with said book, I threw it across the room and almost lost faith in modern day literature.

Some of those books are on the to-do list.

Thankfully, a friend of mine allowed me to borrow one of her books and it restored my faith in literature.

It is the kind of book you get lost in, you dream about, and you fall in love with every word on every page.

I'm 60 pages away from finishing, and taking a break to write this post because I really don't want it to end.  I want to live in that book.

"The Shadow of the Wind" by Carlos Ruiz Zafon is the name of the book, in case anyone is interested.

Not much to update you on -

Just remember that life is precious, please.

We are all lucky to be here.

So lucky.

Books, Cats and Rain.

Today was not a cold, gloomy day...But I came across this today and was like, "This is totally me".  

It rarely rains here and I love rain.

I love cats (most of the time).  They can be good company.

I love books too.

The other day, my coworker and I have a conversation as follows:

Coworker:  Amy, you're not married so you don't cook much do you?  Here, you should bring this ramen home...Gotta take what you can get.

Me:  Sure as hell I don't.  That's a good idea probably.

Coworker:  I can just see you coming in to work twenty years from now proudly bringing in your family Christmas photo:  Just you and twenty cats. 

I laughed all day long.

I told some of my coworkers who were like "Amy, it's okay, he can just be too honest sometimes."

What they don't comprehend is that unlike the majority of Utahns, I love people that are blunt and silly. 

 It makes me happy inside.

So what you can get from this is:

Don't take life too seriously,

Books and cats are your friends,

And rain is awesome.

Happiness is...

Day 14:  10 Things That Make Me Happy.

In no random order.

1) Weekend brunch with friends, when I can.  I've loved bottomless (not what you're thinking) weekend brunch ever since I lived in New York City.  Although in Salt Lake it's not nearly as comparable, I still think it's a lovely time to catch up with girlfriends.

2) Books.  Getting lost in books.  I just can't even describe it; I went through two in the past 48 hours that I've had off.  Although they were light reads (300 pages each) I just love exercising my imagination.

3) Nick and Jess in New Girl...I am not the biggest fan of TV, but I do love them as a couple (give me a break, the season finale was just on and I may or may not still be teary-eyed from it.  Ugh).

4) My job.  Although it's a job and I dread going sometimes, I leave feeling so happy and thankful that I can be a part of these kiddos' lives.  Walking in on a bald little 9 year old boy dancing to the Spongebob theme song in his PJs just makes me smile so much.  I may or may not have danced along with him.

5) Spotify Premium.  I'll admit it, I pay monthly but it's been so worth it.

6) My bed.  I can't seem to get myself out of it 99% of the time I wake up in it.

7) Homes in Sugarhouse.  Recently I went on a late night stroll through those neighborhoods and I wanted to impulsively buy the majority of them.  I really want to own a home, by the way.

8) Which brings me to this, dogs makes me happy...Especially Taz, especially Vizslas in general.  I can't wait to have a backyard, because that is when I will raise a dog (hopefully a Vizsla).

9)  Being independent.  Knowing I don't need anyone to rely on.  That's an accomplishment of mine.

10)  Learning.  Forever learning.  I need to go back to school ASAP!!

10 words, missing, and saying sorry.

Day 10: Sell yourself in 10 words or less.

I don't want to sell myself.

Love you bye.

Day 11: What I miss.

I'm a very nostalgic person.

With that comes a lot of moments that I miss.

I guess, to make this short I miss home.  I miss my family.  I miss my 7-month old niece who can sit up and say 'mama' now.

I blog about this a lot.

I love my family so much.

Day 12: Issue a public apology.

I am sorry to the friends I haven't worked hard to stay in touch with.

I love you all;  Most of you need to move to Utah though, and then we will be best friends forever.

This was a short but sweet one.

Sorry I guess. (Public apology number two).

Advice, today, and embarrassment.

Day 8:  Piece of Advice.

It 's not the end of the world.

December 21st, 2012 came and went.  The Mayans were way off.
Life will go on, even though you may not think it will right now.

Whatever you're going through right now, there's a 99.9% chance that there will be a better day in your lifetime (unless you truly think this is the best day of your life and you could die happy...Then this doesn't apply to you; look away).

So keep your head up.  

It gets better.

Day 9:  A moment in your day.

Happy Friday y'all.

I'm reading "The Emperor of All Maladies" - It's "the biography of cancer" and one damn long book.

Day 10:  Most Embarrassing Moment.

I seriously have lost count of all of my most embarrassing moments.  

Being a kid who peed her pants when laughing too hard until she was 15,  I'd say my life is full of them.

This is from 2 weeks ago: 

Me Going into a 12 year old hispanic patient's room, and trying to wake him up:  "Miguel, Miguel it's time to take your medications!" -me.  "His name is Michael." - His dad.  Oops.

Right now:  I'm listening to Justin Bieber.

Long ago, recently, today:  Every day is an embarrassing moment.

Day 7: The thing(s) you're most afraid of

I was debating whether or not to make this post serious or silly...

I guess I'll do 50/50.

In all seriousness though,

My biggest fear is that I won't be able to have kids.

Don't ask me why, but this has been a big fear of mine since I was fourteen.

I thought, "What if I do something bad and God punishes me and takes away the thing I want to have most in life?".  I've done my share of bad things, so I guess I still have reason to be scared.

I know that so many people can't have kids and my heart aches for them.  I know that there are options, but it still really scares me.  

In non-seriousness -

The other day I was putting my pants on and felt a bump towards my bottom-area.  I immediately just thought it was the back of an earring or something.  I proceeded to discreetly put my hands down my pants, and lo and behold it was a bug.  A bug that was very much alive and crawling towards my butt.  I screamed so loud, and scared the neighborhood I'm sure.

There you have it .

What Do I Do?

Day 6, Monday: If you couldn't answer with your job, how would you answer the question, 'what do you do'?

Kind of silly, but I got asked this question for the first time in a while last Thursday.  I realized how cliche it is, especially when it's the first question someone asks about you; although a lot of the time your career can say a lot about yourself.

So, how would I have answered said girl if I didn't say "I'm a nurse"? 

I live.

I love

I'm 25 years young and have done a lot with my life.

When I don't work I do these things:

Play piano if there is one around me.

Ski if I'm not working nights.

Try new foods.

Try new things.  Anything.

Hang out with friends.

Read.  Read everything.  I live with my kindle by my side.

I'm really good at doing facebook stalking.

I do a lot of Dlisted browsing.

Soak up sun.

Travel.  Anywhere I can.

Think about my family.

That's what I do.

When I am working:

Without using the 'N' word (tehe)...

I take care of kids with cancer.

I give them medicine, love them, and make them crafts sometimes.

Sometimes I get to play dinosaurs and trucks.

I rub their backs a lot when they aren't feeling good.

Overall, I love where I am with my life.